Why Do I Feel This Way?

For me, having a disability comes with many things, for example, different emotions and experiences. For me, a recurring emotion and the experience comes with it is guilt when I not able to access a store or place. Something that I could do before I might never be able to do again because I cant...

What’s Next?

           I created this blog to document how I felt through my whole journey of recovery and now my life as someone with a disability. I really fell into a hole of my own thoughts that I really wasn't sure what to write. When I wrote my first post til now,...

Poetry as a Coping Mechanism: Who Am I?

At the beginning of this year, my depression was at its worst. My depression was no longer just fatigue and sadness but a painful tightness in my chest and an explosion of feelings. My moods were everywhere. I couldn't get a hold of myself, no matter how hard I tried. My temper was loose and...

Understanding My Triggers and How Therapy Changed my Life

*DISCLAIMER: WHEN REFERRING TO MENTAL HEALTH, I AM REFERRING TO MY OWN EXPERIENCES. I AM NOT AN EXPERT. THIS POST IS JUST HOW I PERCEIVE TRIGGERS AND MY OWN IN GENERAL.* I think it takes a while for people with mental illnesses to discover what there triggers. It's pretty common to discover triggers from a...

Depression: A cesspool of sad emotions

I've had depression since I was in high school. It followed me to college. At least once a month, I would have some sort of breakdown from the depression, pressure from my courses and unraveling life problems. So I think I could say, that I've been to rockbottom before. At least, that is what I...

A Blank Page in the Middle of a Chapter

  All I remember is opening my eyes and everything being foggy. My first thought was "Why does my whole body hurt?" I thought maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed but as I started to really open my eyes and these bright, fluorescent lights blinded me, I started to...